Jodi's Journal

This past week has been full of challenging emotions for me and I trust they are for the betterment of me as a human being, friend, woman, teacher and lover. David moved in to the house with me, and even though I am thrilled to be cohabiting with him, I have been challenged with letting go of living alone. You see I have spent the last 10 years living solo, blessed with large living quarters where "my stuff" was spread out luxuriously. I never had to squeeze clothes in a closet or drawer, kitchen appliances had room to breathe, and the bathroom sink was free of clutter. All that has changed as this spacious for 1 beach house is now cozy for 2.

What has become so clear for me is that I have been given the opportunity to surrender attachments, something I endeavor to be free of. Attachments don't serve us as they keep us limited and tight. I believe we are boundless beings. In the past, I have had the tendency to be rigid and by releasing attachments, I am less anal and militant. What a gift this lesson has been and now I get to enjoy it all while living with a lover :)

David & I just returned from a holiday tour back to each of our homelands: his Toronto, mine NJ/NYC. What an amazing way to truly get to know each other on a deeper level, how could we not...we got to meet each others immediate families, saw lots of childhood photos, ate at favorite pastime restaurants, hung with friends from our youth and toured the old hoods. Despite the triggers that are natural to arise when returning to our homelands, the whole experience was a gift that I am so grateful for.

It was my first time in Toronto and I loved it. The city proper definitely felt smaller to me than NYC, yet more full of happy and easy going people. Like NY it is overflowing with culture and yummy ethnic foods. We made a tourist-o visit to the Niagara Falls, also a first for me. The energy of the falls is like none other. I felt an overwhelming beautiful connection to the divine, I know the reason why it is a wonder of the world.

NJ & NYC were a little tourist-y. We ice-skated in Wollman Rink, walked all of Central Park and since I could only tolerate a taste...we made a quick stop in Times Square. I really enjoyed sharing this visit with David and the tourist perspective. I especially loved doing the things I never did before as a NY'er.


All in all, like I said, the trip was perfect. It felt quick for all, parents included, but we did it. We introduced each other to our families, which was the purpose of the trip. And now our families know and understand our love for each other, and also who we are living with because today David moved in to the house with me :)